Four Times:

Please don’t be frustrated, I have always kept my content to my topic-headings… so this isn’t going to be vague either. But again it proves how good I am NOT in math. I directly came to fourth, I bet you guys were waiting for third (I bet you were, I am still not sure what do I think myself as a writer or blogger. But it feels good to write like that, hehehe!!). Actually this is not a planned blog (wow!! So people like me are planning blogs now, sounds funny huh...), however something just happened and I had to write…

I was kind of busy today, so I didn’t get time to go out for lunch. I hadn’t eaten anything in breakfast too, as usual (trust me, not eating breakfast & specially lunch in time, makes you feel n sound like you are really busy!!). So I was feeling hungry like anything, very-very hungry. We have a small but nice (hopefully, I haven’t seen it yet.. just assuming) cafeteria in office and I went there. But as luck wanted, it was closed too. 16 hours of not eating anything just feels amazing!!

So I decided to get something from the office vending machine (for the people who may not know by any chance, you have to put money in a vending machine & you can buy some stupid snacks kinda stuff). I thought of buying Trail-Mix (nuts & chocolate) which was for $1. I put the bill in to buy it but the machine didn’t accept it, it was not working. These are the times we realize that we may have as much money as possible but sometimes, it feels useless (trust me, i don't mean useless to me. I am just talking of people in general... I never feel money is less important).

So, I went to another floor’s vending machine to try my luck. I put my money in and it’s accepted, the machine was working!! Then I select code ‘150’ to buy my trail-mix, the line of trail mix in vending machine moves forward and I am waiting for my delicious trail mix packet to drop (I was hungry to eat the vending machine itself this time). And…

Yeah, the news is the packet didn’t drop. Yes, the packet didn’t DROP!!!

The machine took my dollar bill & the packet didn’t drop. But I was not giving up so easily, I thought maybe it got stuck. So this time if I put another dollar in, then 2 packets would drop. And after all I am still very hungry and I haven’t got anything to eat. So I put another dollar bill in machine, line moves forward and the packet drops. But…

Just one packet has dropped, Just ONE!!!

The machine is not giving up my first dollar’s pack, it still seems stuck. I was still hopeful of getting it, so I decided to put one more dollar in. It’s always worth to try thrice, you can’t rely on just trying twice. And anyways, I am hungry so I can eat 2-3 packets. So I put another dollar bill in to get my 2 packets of trail mix, and now…

Only one packet drops again, AGAIN!!!

What the hell is happening in this world? Even machine’s are cheating on us (I guess the time of machines ruling the world like Terminator movies is coming true. Movies are not always fantasy, this is how it starts… on a vending machine). I could clearly see my packet still hanging on the verge, but every time it does not falls somehow. Ohh my God!!! Why are you doing this to me?? These are the times when we remember god and our faith tries to become stronger in him. So I thought of finally trying in the name of god. After all I had just tried twice… the 1st one was not a try, I was just getting my food. Attempts after those were tries, so I still have one more chance. (This is how we try to fool ourselves with stupid reasoning when we want to do something. And all this thought just comes in a split second. Our mind really works fast, specially to fool ourselves)

So I put another dollar bill in, being very positive that god’s not going to let me down. I’ll have 4 trail mix packs, out of which I’ll eat 2 and keep 2 for future when I have similar situation (see a dollar and a trail mix packs are making my future plans now, either it’s the hunger making me mad or this futuristic ruler machine is controlling my mind). This was like the Judgment Day, and guess what…

One packet drops, yeah just one packet. HUH!!!

Same as all the times, only one packet dropped and one packet was still hanging down not ready to fall. It was smiling at me, actually laughing at me. Infact the whole vending machine was laughing at me. You know what, the whole cafeteria was laughing at me!! There is no place for honest people in this world! God doesn’t listens to us poor people, he just listens to ‘I don’t know who’. (I know it's getting crazy, but this how I really felt for that sad moment... no comments on this) Some lucky bastard gonna get 2 pack out of my money and he’ll laugh his way back! He’ll be rich & happy and I am poor & wretched! And suddenly my hunger was disappeared, totally gone. Ohh My God!!!

But, I remember I was hungry… so I decided to eat. Trail mix was good, I ate 2 packs. Kept one for future (I am poor by a dollar, future planning is more important now). My four attempts to get my right, didn’t work. Righteousness doesn’t work. But whatever… this was the story of four times. I can still guess what all might have come in to your mind when I said ‘four times’, but this was it. Only the ones of you who have been through this pain can understand the ache in my heart.

So friends, hoping to write my planned blog soon which should not be such an emotional and heart breaking story. Until then keep blogging & keep reading my blogs. This is RAHUL again saying, Good Bye & Good Luck!!!

(FYI… while I am writing this there is a terrible rain & thunder storm outside. Weather was partly cloudy in the day but it suddenly has become stormy in the evening. My friend just told me that this is how Kansas weather is, unpredicatble at these times. If we hear the danger siren which indicates hurricane/tornado might hit, we should run and hide in bathtub as we do not have basement to hide. Sounds frightening... hopefully we all will be safe and everything should be fine...

And at the same time... I would like to take this opprtunity to express my grief and sorrow for the people and families struck with natural calamities all over the world. Some things are really out of our control and all we can do is to just support each other and try to make this world a happier place to live. God Bless All!!! )